Akira, I want you to see this from my end. I understand that I did something terrible to you, but from my point of view, I haven't done it. I'm being punished for something in my future that may never even happen to me now. And even though I may never do it, I'll never be able to shake the stigma of it off in your eyes.

[ he still tricked akira into getting possessed, and he still started the motions for the end of the world. but he still hasn't done the real, final act that brings akira's life crashing down yet. ]

I don't expect you to forgive me. But I don't know what I'm supposed to do here.