[ akira no it's a time loop we're fucked no matter what
this is such a mess. because he gets what akira is saying and, honestly, ryo is not quite at the point yet where his singular goal is to completely wipe out humanity. does he care if they do die out? no. but right now, he isn't really motivated to do it by his own hand, versus just letting them kill themselves off.
but something happens that makes him change his goal, and it's something that akira doesn't know. what's the trigger? this is why he wasn't sure that he wanted to hear the explanation from his friend, since he knew something would be left out of the explanation. something that akira himself doesn't know. ]
I need to think on this. It's a lot of information to digest.
[Thinking about not being able to tell your bestie that God loves the humans more than him.]
Ryo...
[This doesn't mean Ryo won't understand, or will refuse. But it... feels like it. Imagine thinking about a single thing instead of ramming it head-first with your emotions.
The answer seems so obvious. They're humans! Those are people he loves! His family! But Ryo truly has the nerve to say he needs to think about it. Think about what?]
[ listen he just found out he's literally satan excuse him for needing some time to process things
he isn't really sure what else to say at this point that might not be borderline unhinged, so ryo decides to say nothing. instead he just looks at akira and his expression turns into something that is close to adoration, as close to as a genuine feeling he can manage--
and then he will try to pull away and go sit down somewhere. ]
[What a weird look that almost pierces his heterosexuality, but instead leaves him a little confused if oddly warm and fuzzy. Hello? (He still has not acknowledged the kiss.)
He doesn't try to chase Ryo down. Really just stands there with his pants open to push his hands back through his hair in frustration. Why does the relief not last after he told?
He stares at the locked door of the gift shop after fixing his pants, then finally, after a while, wanders over to sit down beside Ryo for lack of anything better to do.]
but that's fine. ryo glances at him when he sits, but he doesn't actually say anything. he's fine to just sit and he even manages not to take his phone out. ]
Ryo doesn't even take the phone out, wow... It's fine. He's too tired to start any kind of long moral conversation after the week, after all of that, so he actually sits here beside Ryo, also quiet.]
[This is such an ominous, gay tag. Ryo, read the room.
He has a hilarious and funny expression of mild confusion in the photo, like the ones of people caught off guard. But he at least turned his head to look. Mostly because Ryo was lifting a phone.]
Because I'm Satan and I ruined everything for you, apparently?
[ ryo would really like it if akira could overlook all of that and decide his friendship with ryo is more important than billions of dead people, but he knows akira is nice. so. ]
He turns his head in the opposite direction, frowning.
How jealous would Ryo get hearing again that the most important person was taken from him.]
I forgave you because we’re in hell where we belong. But it’s hard to just forget what happened. It’s hard to just forget burying Miki’s family and Miki and moving on like I didn’t.
Knowing I failed, that I couldn’t protect them. And now seeing it happen again every week we’re here.
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because, in the end, it's really the singular thing he does not want. what's the point of this all if akira isn't there? ]
Is that so?
[ he reaches a hand out to carefully place it at the scar. ]
I can't let you die, Akira.
[ yes, he killed him. but it hasn't happened to him yet. it's fine. he can fix this. ]
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He wraps one hand around the wrist of Ryo's extended hand.] I'm already dead. [Not for Ryo, but. Listen.]
If you don't want me to die, Ryo, you have to save the world we destroyed. You have to save the humans, too. I'll fight you every time to save them.
To save Miki's family, and Miki, and the others.
[It's okay. He'll still fight Ryo now. Because if he can get to Satan and win, he can stop this.]
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this is such a mess. because he gets what akira is saying and, honestly, ryo is not quite at the point yet where his singular goal is to completely wipe out humanity. does he care if they do die out? no. but right now, he isn't really motivated to do it by his own hand, versus just letting them kill themselves off.
but something happens that makes him change his goal, and it's something that akira doesn't know. what's the trigger? this is why he wasn't sure that he wanted to hear the explanation from his friend, since he knew something would be left out of the explanation. something that akira himself doesn't know. ]
I need to think on this. It's a lot of information to digest.
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Ryo...
[This doesn't mean Ryo won't understand, or will refuse. But it... feels like it. Imagine thinking about a single thing instead of ramming it head-first with your emotions.
The answer seems so obvious. They're humans! Those are people he loves! His family! But Ryo truly has the nerve to say he needs to think about it. Think about what?]
Okay.
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he isn't really sure what else to say at this point that might not be borderline unhinged, so ryo decides to say nothing. instead he just looks at akira and his expression turns into something that is close to adoration, as close to as a genuine feeling he can manage--
and then he will try to pull away and go sit down somewhere. ]
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He doesn't try to chase Ryo down. Really just stands there with his pants open to push his hands back through his hair in frustration. Why does the relief not last after he told?
He stares at the locked door of the gift shop after fixing his pants, then finally, after a while, wanders over to sit down beside Ryo for lack of anything better to do.]
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but that's fine. ryo glances at him when he sits, but he doesn't actually say anything. he's fine to just sit and he even manages not to take his phone out. ]
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Ryo doesn't even take the phone out, wow... It's fine. He's too tired to start any kind of long moral conversation after the week, after all of that, so he actually sits here beside Ryo, also quiet.]
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but it's to just take a selfie. of the two of them. ]
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He has a hilarious and funny expression of mild confusion in the photo, like the ones of people caught off guard. But he at least turned his head to look. Mostly because Ryo was lifting a phone.]
Ryo?
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Yes, Akira?
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...Warn me next time.
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You would have said no.
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Okay, well. Ryo has him there.]
That's never stopped you before.
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[ plus, now he has the element of surprise. hehe. ]
We had a lot of photos as kids.
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I guess we did. [Someone would know since he looked at all of them during the worst times of Akira's life.] You had them?
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[ he wishes he had them here, since it would be nice to have after his entire life was just changed dramatically. ]
We did a lot together.
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It was good to have someone to do things with together. So you’re not doing them alone.
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We should keep doing things together.
[ kind of normal ]
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What do you want to do together?
[In hell.]
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I don't know. I assume you don't actually want to spend time with me.
[ it must be very terrible for akira to have to hang out with satan. so many things make more sense now. ]
So we can just sit here for now.
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We don’t have much choice right now.
Why do you say that?
[There are so many reasons, but he is still confused by the bluntness of it. Even though this is Ryo.]
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Because I'm Satan and I ruined everything for you, apparently?
[ ryo would really like it if akira could overlook all of that and decide his friendship with ryo is more important than billions of dead people, but he knows akira is nice. so. ]
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He turns his head in the opposite direction, frowning.
How jealous would Ryo get hearing again that the most important person was taken from him.]
I forgave you because we’re in hell where we belong. But it’s hard to just forget what happened. It’s hard to just forget burying Miki’s family and Miki and moving on like I didn’t.
Knowing I failed, that I couldn’t protect them. And now seeing it happen again every week we’re here.
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What's happening here isn't my fault.
[ yes it's satan but an inferior, alcoholic satan. he knows that wasn't the point but. ]
I just want to know if you would prefer it if we avoided each other here. Be honest. Would you rather not speak to me again?
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