He set you up to fail there, Akira. Even if you had lied, someone would have probably checked after you. The fact that he specifically chose you was suspicious.
[ he isn't saying that scaramouche was wrong about humans just
He was trying to kill Satan, apparently. [ hilarious. ] I don't blame him for turning on me, since from his point of view I was just randomly awake and uninvolved in his plans. I would have been paranoid too.
[Okay. Well. He has to lean his head back and take a deep breath. He has to stand up and walks away, not very far and not very long. But away so he can run his hands through his hair and squeeze his temples and the sockets of his eyes.
Stupid. He doesn't even have the option to be angry! Or disappointed!
Finally, he comes back to sit down again, frustrated.]
[ he doesn't say anything while akira does this. he doesn't even say anything at first when he sits back down.
eventually, though-- ]
I know you said you wanted me to tell you right away, but somehow I couldn't bring myself to yesterday. So I avoided you instead. [ insecurity week babey ] I do wish he didn't get caught. I got along with him pretty well, but...
[ if it had to be between him and scaramouche. of course ryo is glad he didn't get voted for. ]
[ oh he finally admits it. only took several weeks. ]
Then just keep treating him as one.
[ even if he fights back.
the main difference between ryo and scaramouche, he thinks, is that ryo had akira for years. and even if their relationship is currently balancing on an edge, it's still something ryo holds onto. ]
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Humans kept betraying him. I told him not all of them would. I didn't want to be one of them, but he made me pick.
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[ he isn't saying that scaramouche was wrong about humans just
no matter what he was screwed. ]
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I wanted to be able to show him. I should have been able to show him... He was hurting.
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Let's say you did cover for him, and he got away with it. What would you have done about the vote?
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I don't know.
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I killed Childe.
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Why?
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He was trying to kill Satan, apparently. [ hilarious. ] I don't blame him for turning on me, since from his point of view I was just randomly awake and uninvolved in his plans. I would have been paranoid too.
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Stupid. He doesn't even have the option to be angry! Or disappointed!
Finally, he comes back to sit down again, frustrated.]
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eventually, though-- ]
I know you said you wanted me to tell you right away, but somehow I couldn't bring myself to yesterday. So I avoided you instead. [ insecurity week babey ] I do wish he didn't get caught. I got along with him pretty well, but...
[ if it had to be between him and scaramouche. of course ryo is glad he didn't get voted for. ]
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You made me prove him right and get him killed.
[Well. He liked Chandra alright, so he feels bad about that anyway. And the alternative is definitely him having to vote for Ryo.]
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[ harrow was right there to get voted for... ]
I just also didn't want to get caught.
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Ryo...
[GOD. No, not God. SATAN. He has to live with this now.]
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I know I'm asking a lot of you by telling you this. You were already upset.
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No, I… told you to tell me if you ever did.
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[ he goes quiet again, before, ]
Are you going to visit him?
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Yeah.
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Mm. You really got a handful of a roommate.
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I had practice; he acted exactly like you.
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[ lol. ]
But do you consider him a friend?
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Yeah. I do.
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Then just keep treating him as one.
[ even if he fights back.
the main difference between ryo and scaramouche, he thinks, is that ryo had akira for years. and even if their relationship is currently balancing on an edge, it's still something ryo holds onto. ]
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Extra tired because SOMEONE decided to survive kill, and now he has to keep it.]
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ryo is just going to keep quietly leaning on him then. ]