[He doesn't pull away, but he continues to have that sort of desperate sadness on his face. It pinches, then twists slowly into something surprised and hurt.]
But I... [Something else dawns on him suddenly. His expression slackens slightly.] You...
[ which is true. it takes ryo killing akira for him to actually realize that he made a horrible mistake, but at that point it was too late.
the difference, though, is that this ryo hasn't actually gotten to experience that himself yet. there's still that belief that things can work now, maybe even has a better chance of doing so now that he knows what would have happened. he can do better now. ]
Should we shelve this for now? It's been a long weekend for both of us.
[ they probably won't get any further than this, he thinks, considering how how emotions are, along with the weekly effect. little does he know that week 5 is also probably a horrible week to discuss this because of alphas ]
[He returns the hug, a little lighter than usual because of the shoulder. If he could somehow squeeze empathy and understanding into Ryo, he would do it. Alas.
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Ryo...
[This week, at least, is the worst time for his side of a conversation like this.]
You said you tried. You said you already tried to go against God, and it didn't work. Don't do it, Ryo. What if something happens to you?
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ryo shifts, so that he can cup akira's face in his hand. ]
I'll figure it out. And you'll be safe elsewhere, so you won't have to worry about it. You can have your humans and everything.
[ like when you're a kid and really want to keep a stinky stray pet with fleas but your parent hates animals but they eventually cave ]
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But I... [Something else dawns on him suddenly. His expression slackens slightly.] You...
Am I... a replacement?
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No. Who could you replace? All I have is you.
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Me. The me you’re going back to. Are you just going to kill me again trying to figure it out? Trying to find a way to kill God.
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[ which is true. it takes ryo killing akira for him to actually realize that he made a horrible mistake, but at that point it was too late.
the difference, though, is that this ryo hasn't actually gotten to experience that himself yet. there's still that belief that things can work now, maybe even has a better chance of doing so now that he knows what would have happened. he can do better now. ]
Trust me, Akira.
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…
[Trust him. Trust Ryo. After everything. His jaw clenches gently.
Is it even fair to think Ryo is the problem…?]
Ryo…
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[ they probably won't get any further than this, he thinks, considering how how emotions are, along with the weekly effect. little does he know that week 5 is also probably a horrible week to discuss this because of alphas ]
We can go rest.
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He secedes, nodding his head some.]
Don’t forget your phone.
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Okay.
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He pulls away first so he can lead the way back.]