akira

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[preordain]

[ hmmm

there's frustration, although it's hard to tell exactly who or what it's being directed at. the feeling of happiness dims slowly. ]

This is just how I am.

[tearduct]

[He tries to wade through the frustration internally, to maybe guess what it's for. It can't be him, right? It couldn't be...?]

I know. [The feelings in him are also momentarily dim, weighted, but a bit of something lighter tries to brush back. Hopeful almost.] But you're still my friend.

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[ oh.

okay the feeling of happiness goes up again as soon as akira says they're friends. it is a little funny how easy this is. ]

Well. You're also my friend.

[tearduct]

[This is so funny. Not to him, but me. He is starting... to make a connection. He's slow, he only has a single working braincell.

He tries to test something then.]

You're my best friend.

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[ I HATE THIS. STOP it's the same thing though, there is a feeling of warmth from the words, this time stronger.

outwardly, though, his expression is still just neutral. ]

Yes...?

[tearduct]

[Hmmmmmmmmm. Interesting. This brings him some amusement actually. Like teasing.]

You're my best friend, and we've always been best friends. [They were frienemies once, but ignore that.] We used to play together all the time. When it would snow, we'd sled down the hill. We'd look at the sun together, too. Do you remember the eclipse?

We'd go to the onsen together, the one with the capybaras.

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[ this is so funny. not for ryo who is getting confused but also his feelings are just getting increasingly warmer and more content the more akira talks about this. ]

Of course I remember all that. I was there for it, you know...

[ he sounds less sure though, mostly because he is not quite sure what akira is doing here. he is too distracted by being homosexual for the time being. ]

[tearduct]

[Hm. So it's true... that Ryo doesn't show it, but he could somehow usually tell regardless. It's nice to hear, though, he thinks. Why is he a words of affirmation boy. A physical affection boy.]

I know. [Ryo is becoming so gay here listening to him talk about them.] I was just saying, we were always together before you left.

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We were, yeah.

[




just eats another chicken tender so he does not have to add more to this conversation. he's still busy being pleased by all reminders of their beautiful childhood that he has an unhealthy attachment to. ]

[tearduct]

[The fact he now can tell Ryo can feel things, but he still doesn't understand the unhealthy attachment part of it for there to be (another) red flag.

He just thinks it's a little endearing? His buddy can feel things........]

...I knew you were crying too.

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[ that makes him freeze, and then he slowly finishes off his tendy. the feeling coming off of him is uncertain, confused, and something that's a little dark and difficult to discern. ryo isn't even sure what it is. ]

I don't think so.

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[Hm. But he knows what he felt. He remembers. Something just told him... Ryo had been crying. He glances away for a moment, and then slowly looks back. Thoughtful.]

I wonder if you were sad when I died.

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[ it's so funny that neither of them will ever know the gigantic mental breakdown ryo had when he realized akira was dead

at the question, though, ryo's lips curl into a slight smile. the feeling that's hard to decipher just gets a bit stronger. ]

Do you think I wasn't?

[tearduct]

[The strange feeling unnerves him a little, not because it's scary, but because he can't place it. And he isn't sure what that means in regards to Ryo, coming from Ryo. What it means in regards to himself.]

I don't think...

[He trails off, considering.]

I don't think you knew... that I had yet. You were still talking. I think you thought... I'd be okay.

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Well...

[ he reaches a hand out, and places it against akira's cheek. soft. ]

Just don't die again, Akira.

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[He looks and feels surprised by the request because, well,]

I can’t promise that, Ryo…

[He lids his eyes though and lets his face rest against the hand.]

[preordain]

Just do your best not to.

[ that way they'll never have to deal with ryo being forced to handle a dead akira. ]