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[peripheries]

I don't know.

[He thinks she did it. But that feels like garbage. He doesn't really want to say what he says next but if he doesn't it will eat him alive.]

I'm sorry... I didn't want it to be Weesh. So I think I decided to believe that it was probably was you instead.

[preordain]

That's fine. I don't really care if people suspect me or not, I know I'm suspicious.

[ that's just how it is, really. ]

[peripheries]

[That's honestly pretty cool man.]

Well, at least you're aware. ...Isn't it tiresome?

[preordain]

[ he considers the question. ]

Maybe before. Not anymore though.

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...How did you stop caring? I used to not care at all. Now I realize I care too much.

[preordain]

I think that's the normal reaction to interacting with people, usually. They get under your skin.

[ for better or for worse. ]

To be blunt, I lost someone important to me and things don't quite matter as much anymore.

[peripheries]

[Yeah they do. Some for the better and some for the worse. He ending up sticking with the better.]

...I understand what you mean. It's only just happened but I wonder if that will happen to me.

[preordain]

Maybe if enough time passed, but we at least have the luxury of knowing that the ones who die are still... somewhere.

[ a pause and he looks around, like he's wondering if they're being watched by graveyard tv. ]

So it may not be as much time to be drastic.

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I always wonder if they're lying to us though. We have no way of knowing and we just have to believe their word.

[Well, let them watch. Who cares.]

...Do you prefer it?

[preordain]

I'm trying to figure that out. But it does make this easier.

[ he gestures around them. ]

It's easy to go through the day to day.

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Sometimes I think easier is the right choice. What do you really lose in the end?

[preordain]

I suppose that depends on how important your 'self' is.

[ that answer will always vary, per person. ]

Were you not close to the other people here from Heaven?

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No. I don't really know them at all.

[preordain]

[ he just nods. ]

Do you want to?

[peripheries]

[No need to reply I just realized I lost... this...]

...It would be nice to have other people to talk to about Heaven, I guess.