Piecing together what you've told me... it's my fault that everyone is dead. And at a glance, I could see why based on what I know has happened-- humans panicking over the discovery of demons, and they blow the planet up. A man-made Armageddon.
[The lean in makes him glance back, but his expression is hesitant. Why did he stop being brainless and demonic just in time to admit some bitter truth to Ryo when neither of them can escape the gift shop?
He is quiet for so long.]
...Satan. [Once it's out, he feels an immense roll of relief, followed quickly behind by growing worry.] You're... Satan, Ryo.
[ he repeats it, and then is immediately on his feet. there's nowhere to go, so instead he paces, from his spot in front of akira to the door and back. ]
Are you sure? No, I suppose that... [ ryo trails off, and then kneels back down, grabbing akira's shoulders. ] What else?
[Hm. He watches Ryo stand, not be able to leave, then pace, then return. He reaches up to put his hands on Ryo's arms, more an attempt to keep Ryo in place.
He frowns gently.]
There's nothing left. Back home. There's nothing left anymore.
ryo isn't a good person. he will very easily kill any of the people here and he wouldn't feel bad about it, and even hearing about all the deaths didn't sadden him. but, at the end of the day, his original goal really was to save humanity. so it's... he wouldn't say shocking, but strange, to hear how far everything goes from his original intentions. ]
I did want to save the world. That wasn't a lie, you know.
[It must be hard for Ryo, too. It must be hard to be an angel, even a fallen one, trapped in a human body. It has to be hard valuing things a different way. Even though Akira hated those things, even though they made him angry, hurt him.
Slowly, he lifts himself to his feet, still holding Ryo's arms, using them to lift Ryo up with him.]
Even the worst parts of humans... are still a part of who they are, Ryo. I tried to stop you. Me and the Devilmen tried to stop you.
so, he didn't succeed and the world ended. ryo's quiet for a long moment, trying to imagine the events that lead to this... but, if he's honest, the hardest thing to wrap his head around is the idea that akira is against him. ]
[He draws his arms away from Ryo, lowering them. Carefully, he brings up the hem of his shirt, and he undoes the front of his pants so he can pull the corner down far enough to show the scar snaking around his hips.]
You killed me.
There weren't any more Devilmen left to use for more parts, so I died. It was just me and you.
[ akira no it's a time loop we're fucked no matter what
this is such a mess. because he gets what akira is saying and, honestly, ryo is not quite at the point yet where his singular goal is to completely wipe out humanity. does he care if they do die out? no. but right now, he isn't really motivated to do it by his own hand, versus just letting them kill themselves off.
but something happens that makes him change his goal, and it's something that akira doesn't know. what's the trigger? this is why he wasn't sure that he wanted to hear the explanation from his friend, since he knew something would be left out of the explanation. something that akira himself doesn't know. ]
I need to think on this. It's a lot of information to digest.
[Thinking about not being able to tell your bestie that God loves the humans more than him.]
Ryo...
[This doesn't mean Ryo won't understand, or will refuse. But it... feels like it. Imagine thinking about a single thing instead of ramming it head-first with your emotions.
The answer seems so obvious. They're humans! Those are people he loves! His family! But Ryo truly has the nerve to say he needs to think about it. Think about what?]
[ listen he just found out he's literally satan excuse him for needing some time to process things
he isn't really sure what else to say at this point that might not be borderline unhinged, so ryo decides to say nothing. instead he just looks at akira and his expression turns into something that is close to adoration, as close to as a genuine feeling he can manage--
and then he will try to pull away and go sit down somewhere. ]
[What a weird look that almost pierces his heterosexuality, but instead leaves him a little confused if oddly warm and fuzzy. Hello? (He still has not acknowledged the kiss.)
He doesn't try to chase Ryo down. Really just stands there with his pants open to push his hands back through his hair in frustration. Why does the relief not last after he told?
He stares at the locked door of the gift shop after fixing his pants, then finally, after a while, wanders over to sit down beside Ryo for lack of anything better to do.]
but that's fine. ryo glances at him when he sits, but he doesn't actually say anything. he's fine to just sit and he even manages not to take his phone out. ]
Ryo doesn't even take the phone out, wow... It's fine. He's too tired to start any kind of long moral conversation after the week, after all of that, so he actually sits here beside Ryo, also quiet.]
[This is such an ominous, gay tag. Ryo, read the room.
He has a hilarious and funny expression of mild confusion in the photo, like the ones of people caught off guard. But he at least turned his head to look. Mostly because Ryo was lifting a phone.]
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Carefully, he draws one knee up and loops an arm around it, the hand fisting.]
You said you didn't want to know.
[Well, not about the Satan part, about the betrayal part. But maybe they're a little linked.]
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[ the problem is that it keeps coming up, and it's getting difficult to ignore at this point. ]
But I'm starting to think that I'm going to find out sooner or later.
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If he had not known about being a Devilman, would he want someone to keep it from him? Look at what he's already done this week.]
Are you sure you don't already know?
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[ he looks back at akira. ]
But it's more than that, isn't it?
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You're not who you think you are, Ryo.
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[ having this conversation when neither of them can leave is so funny actually ]
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He looks away.]
You're not human.
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And...? What am I, Akira?
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He is quiet for so long.]
...Satan. [Once it's out, he feels an immense roll of relief, followed quickly behind by growing worry.] You're... Satan, Ryo.
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[ he repeats it, and then is immediately on his feet. there's nowhere to go, so instead he paces, from his spot in front of akira to the door and back. ]
Are you sure? No, I suppose that... [ ryo trails off, and then kneels back down, grabbing akira's shoulders. ] What else?
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He frowns gently.]
There's nothing left. Back home. There's nothing left anymore.
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ryo isn't a good person. he will very easily kill any of the people here and he wouldn't feel bad about it, and even hearing about all the deaths didn't sadden him. but, at the end of the day, his original goal really was to save humanity. so it's... he wouldn't say shocking, but strange, to hear how far everything goes from his original intentions. ]
I did want to save the world. That wasn't a lie, you know.
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Slowly, he lifts himself to his feet, still holding Ryo's arms, using them to lift Ryo up with him.]
Even the worst parts of humans... are still a part of who they are, Ryo. I tried to stop you. Me and the Devilmen tried to stop you.
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so, he didn't succeed and the world ended. ryo's quiet for a long moment, trying to imagine the events that lead to this... but, if he's honest, the hardest thing to wrap his head around is the idea that akira is against him. ]
What happened after that? To you?
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[He draws his arms away from Ryo, lowering them. Carefully, he brings up the hem of his shirt, and he undoes the front of his pants so he can pull the corner down far enough to show the scar snaking around his hips.]
You killed me.
There weren't any more Devilmen left to use for more parts, so I died. It was just me and you.
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because, in the end, it's really the singular thing he does not want. what's the point of this all if akira isn't there? ]
Is that so?
[ he reaches a hand out to carefully place it at the scar. ]
I can't let you die, Akira.
[ yes, he killed him. but it hasn't happened to him yet. it's fine. he can fix this. ]
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He wraps one hand around the wrist of Ryo's extended hand.] I'm already dead. [Not for Ryo, but. Listen.]
If you don't want me to die, Ryo, you have to save the world we destroyed. You have to save the humans, too. I'll fight you every time to save them.
To save Miki's family, and Miki, and the others.
[It's okay. He'll still fight Ryo now. Because if he can get to Satan and win, he can stop this.]
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this is such a mess. because he gets what akira is saying and, honestly, ryo is not quite at the point yet where his singular goal is to completely wipe out humanity. does he care if they do die out? no. but right now, he isn't really motivated to do it by his own hand, versus just letting them kill themselves off.
but something happens that makes him change his goal, and it's something that akira doesn't know. what's the trigger? this is why he wasn't sure that he wanted to hear the explanation from his friend, since he knew something would be left out of the explanation. something that akira himself doesn't know. ]
I need to think on this. It's a lot of information to digest.
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Ryo...
[This doesn't mean Ryo won't understand, or will refuse. But it... feels like it. Imagine thinking about a single thing instead of ramming it head-first with your emotions.
The answer seems so obvious. They're humans! Those are people he loves! His family! But Ryo truly has the nerve to say he needs to think about it. Think about what?]
Okay.
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he isn't really sure what else to say at this point that might not be borderline unhinged, so ryo decides to say nothing. instead he just looks at akira and his expression turns into something that is close to adoration, as close to as a genuine feeling he can manage--
and then he will try to pull away and go sit down somewhere. ]
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He doesn't try to chase Ryo down. Really just stands there with his pants open to push his hands back through his hair in frustration. Why does the relief not last after he told?
He stares at the locked door of the gift shop after fixing his pants, then finally, after a while, wanders over to sit down beside Ryo for lack of anything better to do.]
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but that's fine. ryo glances at him when he sits, but he doesn't actually say anything. he's fine to just sit and he even manages not to take his phone out. ]
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Ryo doesn't even take the phone out, wow... It's fine. He's too tired to start any kind of long moral conversation after the week, after all of that, so he actually sits here beside Ryo, also quiet.]
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but it's to just take a selfie. of the two of them. ]
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He has a hilarious and funny expression of mild confusion in the photo, like the ones of people caught off guard. But he at least turned his head to look. Mostly because Ryo was lifting a phone.]
Ryo?
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