I won't go back with you. If we make it, if you win. I don't go back where you're going. I'm the Akira who died. So... do you even care about me? If I'm not the one waiting on you when you go back.
[ a second passes, and then he'll walk over to him, placing his hands firmly on akira's shoulders. ]
It doesn't matter how many Akiras that there are. I'll always care about you. I already knew, but after everything else I've learned while here... but it's always going to be you.
[ his grip tightens, before he lets go and takes a few steps back. ]
[It's fine............ Akira also does not know anything about being doomed, only that he is now dead after Earth has been destroyed, so he does not see any point for him in regards to second chances.]
You'll just have to make the choice, [he says quietly.] Just do, and I'll always be with you.
[Because even if it isn't him, it'll be him. And he knows he won't be able to stop Ryo. He's tried? And he couldn't do it.]
[By the look on his face, this genuinely surprises him.]
Gideon...? Why? I don't know if it works that way. The demons said you could text Satan, but I still haven't tried to ask about the conditions for winning.
[ ah. is it possible to be jealous of yourself?? things that they are now forced to think about.
it's difficult, though. ryo wonders if things might turn out okay for his other akira if he doesn't return. demons have already been revealed to everyone, but if ryo isn't actually there, would it end the same?
what would that akira do, by himself?
he hugs him a little tighter. ]
... you're the only you that I've had these moments with. There's no replacing you.
[REPLACED! JAIL! JAIL FOR RYO FOR A THOUSAND YEARS!]
It's up to you now, Ryo.
[He pulls back on Ryo's arms, leaning away, so he can look Ryo in the face.]
You won't be able to have both. Me and the demons. Because the demons will follow their instincts, and they'll kill the humans. And the humans will be scared of them and kill each other. And if the demons are out there, the humans will kill Miki's parents, and Miki, and Miko, and the rest. And if they kill them, I'll turn my back on you.
[ he really doesn't think it's fair, since the demons were there first. it's always humans encroaching on others and then acting surprised when their bloody expansion has consequences for themselves.
ryo doesn't say this out loud. he knows it won't go well. ]
You really are unfair. [ there's no heat to the words, just an idle comment as he thinks akira's words over. ] I wonder if there was ever a chance for them all to co-exist.
[ he doesn't think so. even if things were going well, ryo is pretty sure god would have intervened. ]
No matter what I wouldn't want to abandon them. I'd have to figure something out.
[It never dawned on him before, but it's in this moment he understands Ryo is always going to fail. And now he realizes why. Because Ryo can't let go of the demons.
He's not sure if he wants to tell Ryo this; he thinks Ryo will get angry with him. So he doesn't say it. Maybe he should. He just doesn't believe he can convince Ryo otherwise with anything he says at all.]
If it's possible for you to go somewhere else then, are you going to do it?
[ he never actually said for sure. just that he'd miss ryo in that case, which is something that gives him a warm feeling that isn't something he's used to. ]
He wonders what Ryo could possible have to think about when it's clear Ryo is going to try going back, and he's going to stay here because he has nothing to return to at all.]
[He wraps his arms around Ryo's shoulders finally, returning the hug, squeezing Ryo to himself. He can't even beg God to watch over his friend like Eiji because God is who hates his friend deeply for acting out.]
There can't be two Akiras.
[This is just setting Ryo greedily up for something that is not only dangerous but extremely kinky.]
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I won't go back with you. If we make it, if you win. I don't go back where you're going. I'm the Akira who died. So... do you even care about me? If I'm not the one waiting on you when you go back.
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It doesn't matter how many Akiras that there are. I'll always care about you. I already knew, but after everything else I've learned while here... but it's always going to be you.
[ his grip tightens, before he lets go and takes a few steps back. ]
You gave up on trying to get me to stay, then.
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His expression shifts from pensive to something quietly accepting.]
I know you won’t. I know you’ll go back to try saving me.
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because ryo doesn't know this, so he looks so very intently at akira. ]
What else am I supposed to do? You're my best friend.
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You'll just have to make the choice, [he says quietly.] Just do, and I'll always be with you.
[Because even if it isn't him, it'll be him. And he knows he won't be able to stop Ryo. He's tried? And he couldn't do it.]
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Gideon told me that she wanted you to go to another world.
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Gideon...? Why? I don't know if it works that way. The demons said you could text Satan, but I still haven't tried to ask about the conditions for winning.
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[ akira has been pretty set on punishing himself, but... ]
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But... I wouldn't ever see you again.
[Well. He wouldn't here either, but he had attempted initially to get Ryo to stay.]
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... is that something that would upset you? Never seeing me again?
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It'd hurt for a little while.
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[ he walks another step, and then once he's close enough, ryo wraps his arms around him for a hug. ]
We were meant to be together.
[ he doesn't mean romantically. just... together. ]
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But we won't be. Not me and you. It'll be you and him.
[This week is so rough on his psyche.]
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it's difficult, though. ryo wonders if things might turn out okay for his other akira if he doesn't return. demons have already been revealed to everyone, but if ryo isn't actually there, would it end the same?
what would that akira do, by himself?
he hugs him a little tighter. ]
... you're the only you that I've had these moments with. There's no replacing you.
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It's up to you now, Ryo.
[He pulls back on Ryo's arms, leaning away, so he can look Ryo in the face.]
You won't be able to have both. Me and the demons. Because the demons will follow their instincts, and they'll kill the humans. And the humans will be scared of them and kill each other. And if the demons are out there, the humans will kill Miki's parents, and Miki, and Miko, and the rest. And if they kill them, I'll turn my back on you.
So how are you going to fix it?
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ryo doesn't say this out loud. he knows it won't go well. ]
You really are unfair. [ there's no heat to the words, just an idle comment as he thinks akira's words over. ] I wonder if there was ever a chance for them all to co-exist.
[ he doesn't think so. even if things were going well, ryo is pretty sure god would have intervened. ]
No matter what I wouldn't want to abandon them. I'd have to figure something out.
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He's not sure if he wants to tell Ryo this; he thinks Ryo will get angry with him. So he doesn't say it. Maybe he should. He just doesn't believe he can convince Ryo otherwise with anything he says at all.]
Good luck, Ryo.
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[ he never actually said for sure. just that he'd miss ryo in that case, which is something that gives him a warm feeling that isn't something he's used to. ]
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I don't know yet. It... depends where. I'll still be Devilman.
[So he has to think about other people, unlike someone else standing in this room who will remain nameless.]
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but ryo just nods slowly. ]
... right. Well, we still have a few weeks to think about this.
[ it doesn't really seem like enough time though, but at least it's something.
he hugs akira again, burying his face in his shoulder for a second. ]
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He wonders what Ryo could possible have to think about when it's clear Ryo is going to try going back, and he's going to stay here because he has nothing to return to at all.]
Are you going to say goodbye to me before you go?
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[ he'll admit to that, and then consider what to say next. ]
But I'll want to see you.
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There can't be two Akiras.
[This is just setting Ryo greedily up for something that is not only dangerous but extremely kinky.]
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I guess not. But I can be selfish, since that sounds pretty nice.
[ it would be nice if there was an easy answer to this. and he's sure from someone else's point of view, there is, but... ]
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Don’t just admit to being selfish when you’re already selfish.]
At least pretend you don’t think that’s true, Ryo.
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