akira

[preordain]

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[preordain]

[ please put on clothes.

he glances at him. ]

Are they still going?

[tearduct]

[STOP. He hasn't gone back yet.]

Yeah, they are.

[preordain]

Well, that'll probably last a while.

[ he's just going to lay down. ]

This is our last night, maybe.

[tearduct]

More than likely.

[He glances over his shoulder at Ryo with a small frown.]

You're still going to stay?

[preordain]

There's nowhere else for me to go, so yes.

[ he hates it here so deeply

but it's fine he will deal with it ]

[tearduct]

[He looks ahead again, and he's quiet for a while.]

...If I ask Kaoru and Hikaru if you could go to their world, and they happened to say yes, would you go...?

You don't have to if you don't want. It's your choice what you want to do.

[preordain]

I really doubt they'd say yes.

[ there's a pause, and more quietly. ]

And I don't want to see you with him.

[tearduct]

I wouldn't hurt to try.

[But his shoulders rise and fall as he sighs.]

Okay. I get it.

[preordain]

[ he turns his head so he's looking back at the sky. ]

Sorry. I couldn't even manage it today, so...

[ they were so pda-y how did no one notice ]

[tearduct]

[only ryokira for them]

Sorry. [Honestly? IT'S FAIR.] Is that why you were mad at me?

[preordain]

No. I was also mad that you said Gideon was your best friend.

[ the only reason he wasn't mad when it happened was because he was cursed. help. ]

It's the only thing I have of you. So it hurt that it wasn't something that was just mine.

[tearduct]

[He was out here assuming it was both things and, wow, he was right. Slowly, he lies back on the dock beside Ryo, folding his hands on the jacket over his stomach.]

You are my best friend. Gideon... is a good friend, but... I don't know. I was trying to be nice to her. You as my best friend is different from her. I've known you all my life almost. I've only known her for a few months.

You'll always be my best friend.

[preordain]

... okay.

[ god he really wishes he could believe this.

he goes quiet for a moment. ]

I asked Alex about what you told me before. The option to no longer exist. She said it's something Wednesday has to figure out at her home, so she isn't sure if or when it would be possible.

[tearduct]

[Damb, believe him... Ryo, your distrust.

He closes his eyes immediately and bites his lower lip. He doesn't say anything for a long moment, and when he does, his voice is a little croaky.]

Yeah, that's what Wednesday said. That she'd try to find a way.

[preordain]

Mm...

[ other people are probably having normal, congratulatory conversations right now.

he sits up. ]

It would probably be for the best.

[tearduct]

[He opens his eyes like he thought Ryo was maybe leaving, but then he relaxes.]

I really don't want that for you, Ryo. I want you to exist. But... I can't force you.

[preordain]

[ he just looks at akira, and his shoulders slump a little. he straightens up a second later. ]

So. We should say goodbye, then.

[tearduct]

...

[It takes him some time, but he finally, slowly, sits up.]

Can't we do it tomorrow? Or... do you not want to see me tomorrow?

[preordain]

I'm not sure if I'll want to see anyone tomorrow.

[ truly the only thing stopping him from fucking off tonight is because he does want to at least stick around for the results. ]

And I don't know how soon you'll all have to leave.

[tearduct]

[He glances down, hanging his head for a moment. Then he twists so he can get to his feet reluctantly.

He removes the jacket and hands it to Ryo, not exactly concerned about being naked even if it's awkward. He keeps his eyes down.]

[preordain]

[ he'll take the jacket back, although he's holding it like he isn't really sure what to do with it.

ryo just looks up at him, waiting to see what exactly is he. doing. ]

[tearduct]

[It takes him a moment before he finally lifts his eyes. They're a little glassy.]

Goodbye then, Ryo.

[preordain]

[ he just stares at him. ryo was the one who suggested doing it tonight, but he wasn't really prepared to do it now. he opens his mouth, and closes it, still just staring. ]

... goodbye?

[tearduct]

[Ryo had been so adamant and so hopeless, he just assumed Ryo wanted to get it over with as fast as possible. So many of their problems come from miscommunication.

He isn't sure what else to say exactly.]

You are my best friend. I'll miss you, and I won't forget you.

[preordain]

[ wow he really should have just quietly fucked off. ryo prefers to think things through logically and clearly, without letting emotions get involved in the decisions.

but it's one thing to say something and then another thing altogether to go and do it. he's realizing he is not ready at all, actually. ]

You are my best friend, too. [ ... ] Forever.